Dreamcatcher

from Jagged & Raw by Tyler Matthew Smith

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Over and over again, this battle’s raging on in my head
about what I could have done differently, the past it haunts me
cause I can’t let go the payment of my debts,
these things I should have said, these painful regrets
When no one’s left to forgive me cause they’re gone,
and I can’t find the strength to just move on

Lying awake at night trying to make all this right
while the holes I’m diggin in my sleep ain’t ever as deep when I wake up in the morning
and the blackest black loosens up its grip on what I’ve got left to do
while the suffering that surrounds me seems to be indiscriminate about who it’s bringing down
Somehow at the end of the day I’m still standing and I got to find my own way out

If I carry all
this weight upon my head until I’m dead and gone
then I will no longer
see to be myself to live my life
the only way I ever thought I would know how
it ain’t these dreams gonna catch in the tangled web
that I’m weaving
oh they’re leaving me behind

I didn’t pull the trigger, but I seem to keep on digging
a grave to bury my own salvation down, deep into the ground
cause I put a gun into her hand and then sat quiet while she did what she felt like she had to
and in the days after I paid the devil what he was due

Every time I make excuses it always ends up useless
leaves me feeling even more shameful for the not one, but two lives I have wasted
I don’t have any room inside my mind for these angels of destruction
but I’m blinded by compunction

If I carry all
this weight upon my head until I’m dead and gone
then I will no longer
see to be myself to live my life
the only way I ever thought I would know how
it ain’t these dreams gonna catch in the tangled web

that I’m weaving
oh they’re leaving me behind
trying to hold myself to account of what is wrong and what is right
ain’t nobody gonna gain from my suffering but I’m just standing around here wondering

If I carry all
this weight upon my head until I’m dead and gone
then I will no longer
see to be myself to live my life

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from Jagged & Raw, released May 19, 2022

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